Ranting

So a couple of things..I hate my Job! I've actually never before this Job had a Job I hated. I've enjoyed every single one of my jobs, except this one and to put it simply its because...oh my God, there's so many reasons..Like the ppl are fake as hell and I know that is so high school..In fact I hate using the word fake to describe anything but they claim to be so "progressive" or present themselves in that manner but they are so backward in ways that matter that it is really really annoying..I hate people like that! Just be who you are dammit! I am me, I don't even know what progressive me is although ppl would describe me as that, I am me, I believe that you should treat people the way you want to be treated, But at the same time, I know I do a lot of things wrong, I curse and sometimes I don't do the write thing, but I don't claim to be anything but imperfect! You know in the Bible in the new testament that Jesus disguised as a beggar, comes to a man and the man treats him horribly, I try to remember that in my daily interactions..It may be corny, but that's how I do. I believe that if we all tried and learned to function like that, this world would be a better place..but people at my Job don't function like that, its a doggy dog world here in the NPO scene, to each his own. The person they think cares about their Job the most is the one that cries and acts hella dramatic..and I try not to do or be that, and to end this rant..just to give you an example of the inconsideration level at this place, my boss and I check twice a week, early in the morning and I was told off in a text message once because I was running late {Mind you she's late almost all the time} and she told me that "I should always assume that we are checking in, and she doesn't know why I didn't think we would, and that I need to be on time"..well after receiving this rash warning, i decided that I am going to be on time for all check-ins after, and I have except just this week alone she's been late TWICE! 15 Minutes and 40 Minutes..WTF?? Thoughts???


In other news...I was on the bus today, and this woman was reading a magazine I believe THE ATLANTIC and the cover page had a picture of Obama and it read "The End of White America"! Okay, so people let's get this right. This man is remarkable, he's accomplished a tremendous amount and plain and simple he seems like a good dude and I am believe in Barrack..but Barrack is an answer to some problems in America (primarily that Bush is Out and McCain isn't in) but he is not the answer to all of Our problems! "This moment is historic indeed, and it is true that this multi-racial, multi-class embrace of Obama shatters the mainstream currency that old brand of racial exclusion and hatred At the same time, it's important to keep in mind two things: that hostile, categorical exclusion of blacks has been on the wane for quite some time; and that racial inequality remains, though in less blatant, overt. The powerful impact of the civil rights mandate for social, political and cultural integration has rendered bizarre the kind of exclusions and raw hatred that was normal fewer than 35 years ago." (Professor Tricia Rose http://www.triciarose.com/). Obama has made the presidency a true and real reality for people of color in America..after he was elected..I remember my Dad calling me and saying "Anything Is Possible" and I guess that is what Obama has restored in America. That sentiment, that audacity to believe that anything is possible, that it is possible for this world to be a better place, that people can live harmonically, shit...that peace is possible in the Middle East, but to be clear, equality is not a reality in America as of yet, but he has renewed our energy to continue to work hard towards it, for a few years it was looking bleak!


Should I stop writing...No one more thing.....

So I have a crush..he works at the Restaurant I work at (I work there part time, another thing about NPO's, they don't pay) ..he is a chef...he is older..he's already let me know he's crazy...he seems cool..made a joke about marrying me yesterday (awkward) ..and yea..there will be more to come on this..I feel like an idiot writing about it now..I need to get back to work (:-( )

TTYL

Intro..

Hey all, you can call me Asmarina. For those of you that don't know Asmara is a the capital city of Eritrea, and I'd like to think the women from there they call Asmarina but that could be one of my many creations. I currently live in DC{Don't ask me why, I am having a hard time figuring it out myself}. I work for an NPO {Slang for Nonprofit} its not all it's hyped up to be, you want to change the world, create your own organization with your vision. A few things about me:

• I am many things, I'd like to consider my role as a sister, daughter, and friend as the most crucail. I'll complain about all these things on this blog, but my new thing is to be solution oriented and If I don't come up with one..call me out!
  
• I am not perfect by any means but slowly and surely I am learning to be okay with that.
• I am spastic, I am dramatic (unnecessarily so at times) but it's my process, I am learning to own.
• I am still under construction...23 years and going
• I have a shamefully hard time letting things go, but I'd like to think thats a testament to my passion and devoution..NO?
  
• I hate being limited
• I try to life in alliegence with these principles, these things Desired or Desiderata in Latin..written by Max Ehrmann'

Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

Lets all live our lives with this Moto..Thanks for Reading..Leave your thoughts and feedback if you wish.